Things that Make Me Smile.

So today was the saddest day of my life in Sydney so far.

I woke up - late of course, not that it mattered cause it was a Sunday - and got up... I felt like crap. Seriously shitty, ya know what I mean. I just missed my family and friends and everything.

So I watched a new movie that I got called "My Sister's Keeper", thinking it would cheer me up. It seemed like a pretty cool movie.

I was wrong.

I cried through the whole thing and that turned out to be exactly what I needed. A really good long cry. It was an amazing movie - and I can identify with the main character so that made it even sadder.

Then I went to lunch with my host families friends. They had a dog just like my one in Canberra. I missed Luci so much that I spent basically the entire lunch cuddling the puppy. It was cheeky and cute - just like my baby girl.

Then I made brownies. The ultimate comfort food. My recipe uses 375 grams of pure chocolate. None of this cocoa power stuff. I'm talking melt chocolate and butter on the stove. Amazeballs. I ate like four of them while waiting for my parents to call.

After a call from my parents, who made me feel so much better, I looked through some old photos. A bad idea yet again.

I saw my friends from Canberra and just felt like I'd lost an entire life there, ya know? I miss everyone so much and I wish that I could go back and see them more often. But I can't, so that's that.

Sorry for the depressing nature of this post. So I'll make it a little happier with another list.

THINGS THAT MAKE ME HAPPY

1. My sister. She has the uncanny ability to brighten up my day one hundred times. Whether I'm two feet away or 350km, at home, in hospital, wherever. Just seeing her smile makes me feel a thousand times better.

2. Sad movies - then happy ones. A good cry is all you need, then watch a really funny or lovey movie.

3. Dancing. Nuff said.

4. Baking! Knowing that if I mix butter, chocolate, sugar, eggs and flour it will get thick is so comforting. And you can have little chef's treats as well.

5. Calls from friends. I love it when my best friends call. Especially when they don't have a reason to. They just want to talk to me.

6. Cleaning. I know it's weird, but cleaning up my space makes me feel like I've accomplished something.

7. Shopping. I am a girl after all! :P

8. Painting my nails. I love having bright, bubbly coloured nails. It makes me feel so much better when I have a pretty pink or a bold blue on my fingertips.

9. Playing old video games. I have an ORIGINAL nintendo DS. Yeah, I know right? Vintage. I play Mario-Kart and Pokemon and sometimes even Sims 2 Pets. I really want the hotel Sims for DS but I can't find it anywhere :(

10. Makeovers!!! I love having people do my hair and makeup, and I especially love when I can do it to them as well!!!!!

And whenever I'm sad, I write a journal. And once my feelings are on paper it's so much easier to just close it up and feel better.

Xx, talk to you guys later.